Spring cleaning and Disney World Update!

I am pretty sick right now and so I am lying in bed with the TV in the background and reading my old posts. Blogging tends to increase on sick days but I guess I like to be productive that way. My mind is a never ending story teller so I can only talk to myself for so long. I need to share! I've also taken a bit of a break from blogging in the last couple of months so I got into rereading some of my older posts and it reminded me of a lot of good things.  I notice my memory is going with age. I guess if I don't document things I won't remember them. In some ways that's a tragedy and in other ways it's a blessing. But I do want to remember things, good and bad, so I will try and update as much as possible.

I mostly try to post only positive segments online and keep the deeper and darker posts as drafts but I didn't do that earlier in the year and had to go back and remove them.  I want to keep my public blog as more of a positive place and encourage people to live their best life. So I apologize if you read my previous posts (which aren't there anymore) where I was doing nothing but ranting and complaining and thinking mean thoughts about the world and myself. I'm over that but at the same it was good to see. Blogging is a good gauge to see change over time.

This year so far my January and February were much of a blur. I remember some moments of unhappiness due to a break up but mostly I can't remember anything. I just know that instead of talking to people or hanging out with friends I spent more time by myself. I blogged about my negative feelings so I didn't have to give bad mojo to anyone I knew personally. I went to the gym often in attempt to work out some of my energy and I did a lot of reading. I took a meditation class offered by the Vancouver School Board and it was fantastic. I started to read many books on Buddhism. I started going to the temple. It was a new place that offered a feeling a peace.  I believe I am becoming more spiritual but I wouldn't call myself a Buddhist but who knows what tomorrow brings.

In March I went on a 2 week vacation with my family. We started the vacation in Florida doing all the Disney tourist things with the kids and then went on a Disney Cruise. Disney cruises are amazing! They are so classy and there plenty of fun activities to do. The food tastes  pretty fantastic and their private island in the Bahamas was pretty sweet. Then after the Florida-Bahamas vacation we flew to New York so my grandparents could meet my  nieces. It was freezing cold there and we ate so much I felt sick and fearful of food. Seriously needed a detox when I got back. I will probably do a separate blog on my Spring vacation because the Disney Cruise was just out of this world... everyone should go on one.

Now it's May and time is flying by. Soon it will be summer and the end of the school year. My plans for summer are up in the air right now. I plan to work in summer school and also dedicate some time to volunteer somewhere. Also, a trip to San Diego may be an option.

I feel kinda excited. I want to do something great this summer. I want to learn something new. Maybe it will take me some place I am meant to go or guide to me to do something different with my life. I feel I need a change. I just don't know which way I should be going. But I know as long as I am proactive and following my instincts I'll be where I am supposed to be.

End of April and taxes not due until May!

Woot! What a lovely surprise. Thank you weird CCRA virus. This means I will have time to procrastinate even further and do useless things with my time while avoiding what is most important. At least it's fun. I went back to my blog just to read what I had written months ago. How pathetic. I was so disgusted with the pathetic tone of my some of my posts that I deleted them. It's been about 4 months since that pathetic time but you know what, I don't believe time heals all, but I believe time definitely gives you perspective.

Now I am much better than then. I actually don't even remember feeling that pain. That's a good thing. Yay! I guess its' good to write out your awful thoughts to get them out. It's a good way to also not pester your friends over and over again with negative emotions. They also serve as good learning tools because I can't even remember the feelings I had only 4 months ago now. Something that seemed so important before is not even in my mind anymore. Why did I make it such a big part of my life?  Hopefully I will never think like that again.

Happy Spring people. Summer is just around the corner! Feeling it in the air yet? 

New Schedule.

So I have made a schedule for all the physical things I'm supposed to accomplish during the week if work does not get in the way or important social events.   The times are when I start and get home... My dinners will be the only challenge and exhaustion.

Monday: Zumba and steam room     Done work at 5:00       Gym from 5:30 - 7:30

Tuesday: Meditation begins at  Done work at 5:30      Gym from  6:30 - 9:00

Wednesday: Pound or Zumba and steam room   Done work at 5:30     Gym from 6:30-8:30

Thursday: Zumba and Yoga or weights  Done work at 5:30    Gym from 6:15  - 8:15

Friday: If I have nothing to do I should go do some weights.   Done work at 2:30    Gym from  3:00-5:00

Saturday: Nothing. (If I do a physical activity, pick an outdoor activity)  DAY OFF!!!

Sunday: Weights and steam room.         Random


So I have to make dinner for Monday to Thursday... I guess I need to start thinking.


Now I have to find room for reading. I don't know if I'll be able to do all this. If I do it all I must plan all my meals before hand and like have very little time at home...

Eating healthier...

Food is either your medicine or your poison.

Words to remember to motivate me when I make food choices.

What.

Do you ever wonder why you are thrown together with the people who are in your life now?
These people who challenge you, push you, calm you, relax you and love you are people that have been chosen to be with you in the same time and place. At a moment's notice they can disappear. At a moment's notice they can appear. With each and everyone of them a connection is clear.

Though I read somewhere recently asking why you have met with certain circumstances is a very debilitating  question. Instead, we should ask what. As Why forces us to be victims and forces to stay in the past or forces us to surrender to circumstances as slaves where as what gives us a opportunity to move forward from what we have experienced.

So every time I start thinking of Why... I am going to switch my thoughts to What.

Some progress with my goals

I registered for a mindfulness class in the Kits community center. I'd like to take more classes but I need to make time for the gym so I can be healthy.

Mondays, Wednesdays and Thursdays need to be gym days as my Tuesday is now taken. Maybe i'll do double class for pound on Wednesday to make up for it. My weekend can be a free for all.

New Years resolutions...

Ok... I have refined my new years resolutions..

1) Lose some weight: when I reach my visible goal (will not weight myself) I will by myself a new phone. Within this goal is exercising and eating better

2)  Continue to work on my spiritual growth. This year I will take one course on spiritual growth (at least), read more books and try to do some meditation or find a way to center myself in the moment.

3) Meet new people and make new friends.

4) Follow my heart to enjoy what this city has to offer.

5) Save money...

In other words, I'd like to balance my life more. Balance requires maintenance!