It's a small small world. Long weekend update.

Maybe everything IS connected. Eventually you find all the reasons for the bumps in the road. Today I found some interesting coincidences and instead of looking at them as random happenings I rather see them as patterns. There must be patterns in life I have no control over that affect me in ways that I don't notice. How interesting. Let's follow the pattern and see where it takes me.

Anyway, update on the long weekend. What did I do this long Victoria Day weekend. Not much really. On Friday I spent the whole day sleeping and catching up on some rest. I felt wayyyyy better after. I felt as though I was cured. However, right now feeling sluggish and tired again. I guess too much rest is not good either. Saturday went to work for a little bit, then I got my nails done. I didn't get it done by my regular nail tech but it was still good. However, I do prefer my regular nail tech. Trust is built over time. I went home for a rest after that and met up with friends at Johan's bday party out in Burnaby. We saw some people we haven't seen for a while. It was a good time. I'm glad I went. Sunday, worked again, then I went shopping for a bit. Went for hotpot dinner and casino with friends. Monday, last day of long weekend :( plan was to meet Elaine out by the farm to help out, but they were super late, I went shopping instead and left b/c I didn't want to wait anymore, met up with Shirley and Cliff downtown and came home for dinner.
It was a very low key long weekend. However, it felt very much like summer holidays. I can't wait till vacation.

On another note, today I was watching TV. Too much TV really is bad. Today I had a major issue after watching 'The best food ever". After watching I had cravings for all sorts of food. Instead of pushing the cravings away I ended up making pancakes, with carmelized walnuts. That's something I never ever ever ever make!

It was decently good. I should really stop watching all these shows.... but they are a bit irresistable. I still havent' lost any weight! But I am eating healthier everyday. I just gotta get back to the gym... that's the hard part. I can do it!

What people say...

People always have something to say about something or other. They wanna tell you how to live your life or they tell you how you should feel. Sometimes that gets confusing and you get a little unsure of you who are. I think it's more important to just be happy. To find a place where you are content. What's wrong with being content? Why does everyone have to be the best at something or reach the top? What's wrong with just being comfortable? They make it sound like being comfortable is such a bad thing. However, comfort is equilibrium and everyone needs balance.

So many questions.

Back in the day I had so many goals. I knew what I had wanted to do and I did it. I don't why I've have stopped wanting this. In some ways I'm relieved, in other ways I'm sad. So am I just settling right now because I don't have to try as hard and because most days are carefree? Or am I actually content? I know what I'm happiest doing but I'm doing something else right now because it offers me comfort. Someone once said never to take the easiest path. I feel like I have but I just don't feel comfortable taking a risk. I'm afraid as I've grown older, I see more of my family in me. In some ways I should feel proud but I should also not be so fearful.